i think i need to become more of a hermit

**edit: i am stressing out over school, not anything personal  =P

i dont know what is wrong with me

my brain cant seem to be work out tricky problems anymore

i use to be able to come into a test not knowing much, but with what i know i could work around a problem

but now i cant do it at all

so i end up leaving a problem totallty blank, not even a formula or doodle down so i can get partial credit, just absolutely nothing

the only thing i can spit out on paper is correct answers, which i dont have most of the time anymore

just took another test today, i know i totally failed it

blanks everywhere

i got  kicked out of my stochastic class cause i forgot to turn off my ringer, and someone text messaged me

so i wasnt able to get my test score

i really wanted to see if i was the one with the highest score, cause this was the only test i felt i actually passed. the highest score was 82

i probably didnt get the 82 but hope got something close.

how weird that i am doing poorly in the easy class, and i think i am doing real  well in my hard classes.

what is wrong with my brain???

today after the exam, and getting kicked out of the next class, i had to drive up north for a field trip for a class.

i had the sudden urge to smoke. if u know me i dont smoke anything. but for some reason i was just stressing so much, i just wanted to smoke something

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seems like i have nothing good to say on xanga anymore, all i do is complain.

why cant things just go my way again, so i would have something good to say

yesterdays horoscope for libras:

Hidden agendas and unspoken feelings — both yours and those of others — could impact what is happening, but it may be difficult to put it all together and to make sense of the situation. After all, there are facts that have been left out. Some things are hidden from your view, and until the secrets are told, you will be playing with only a partial deck of cards. Don’t make any important decisions until you’ve learned what you need to know.

had to post this cause i was just talking to ***** and the subject of “hidden agenda” came up, and i just saw this. guess my horoscope was accurate than

THIS WEEK’S CONTINENTAL SPECIAL

	$198	Houston, TX (IAH – Intercontinental)	New York, NY (JFK)
	$198 or 17,500 miles + $29*	Houston, TX (IAH – Intercontinental)	New York, NY (LGA)

must leave on this sat, return on coming mon or tues

*** edit: i am not going to nyc again this weekend, this is for u guys to go, if yall arent busy.

less than two weeks till my b-day

i feel so old

i will be 23

i should be working at some big company now

but due to bad decisions and the consequences that come alone with them, i am still stuck in school

plans for my b-day?? not any yet

i was suppose to take a trip to ny that weekend, but that aint happening anymore

sil and me probably will have a b-day dinner thing like we do every year

it will be nice to hang with all the girls again

being forgetful, i missed my girl nhi b-day thing on sat

SORRY NHI, I WILL MAKE IT UP TO U

i was hoping this year my b-day will be great, but i dont know anymore

only time will tell

i have two weeks till i will know that

my girls getting together will make it alot better than any normal day

what will i wish for on my b-day this year???? i know what i want, but i know i wont get, so i should wish for something else.

yup Lan was correct i was in NY

but only for a day

soooo tiring

i didnt have much sleep the days b4 cause i had to do hw and other stuff.

so i was sleeping all the way to NY.

i still was tired when i got there.

so when bruce had to do errands, i was taking a nap in his car, but i kept waking up making sure he doesnt get a parking ticket.

went shopping around soho, found nothing

walked around chinatown killing time b4 dinner

bought 6 different types of sour patch, found out blue raspberry is my favorite

ate at joe’s ginger with a bunch of my friends, tammy,  bruce, kenny, penpen, hilda, and iggy.

hamlin met us up after and than we went to a cafe in little italy.

went back to kenny/frosty house to sleep

kenny took me to the airport in the morning.

than back to houston

eating now

about to go to work.

so disappointed…

guess where i am now…

WHAT A DREARY DAY

i need to go away by myself…